Hello again! 4 months since the last time I wrote eh.
I know I'm not the most faithful writer here, but I do keep thinking of writing down my thoughts.
Once I was talking to a friend, months ago, we were discussing about life, about passion. She is a friend of mine back in uni, she is a fashionista, I am clearly not, but I'm into public speaking and motivational speech. She loves to dress up, she pays attention to how she looks, I love to have some deep discussion, exchanging thoughts, I pay attention to what I and the people said.
The discussion went along into the current reality of living in the digital era. We were thinking of what we can do to wed this passion and the current reality. I suggested her to have a fashion blog and she suggested me to have a life sharing account, either verbal or written.
Anyway, I'm not saying that's what I'm finally doing or not doing. What I'm trying to share here is, how important it is to speak up about what you personally deep down want to do for your life.
It's easy for you to say so, huh Vita? You aren't even doing what you want to do right now.
Yes I am not, but I will. I am progressing. It will be a whole different story of mine and yours. I might take longer or sooner. But, the point is I'm progressing. Progressing closer into what I dream I will be.
Talking about the progress, it takes a simple step yet hard to do. Trusting your own self. You oughta do what you wanna do.
Even though the world against you, you oughta do what you wanna do.
Try to bring yourself in your future life regretting your decision of following others' suggestion rather than following your own gut. Who to blame? The people who suggested so? Of course not, you had the power to say no yet you said yes to their suggestions. You will be the only person to be blame on. The milk already spilled.
Be the person that your future will thank you to.
I found this video entitled "Not every girl dreams of being a little princess." It's a sweet video of 10 years old girl (now she's 12 or 13) who does what she wanna do.
I'm in love with this video. It's beautiful to see if everyone can be this supportive as her parents do. It reminds me of my own parents.
I had a lot of discussion with my parents about life. It's rarely for me to hear them demanding me over something that will be my future.
I always remember what my dad said to me, "as long as it is good and you love it, do it, I will always support you," being supportive, my mom said "never waste any opportunities, just do it." I'm super blessed to have such parents.
Kamis, 03 Mei 2018
Minggu, 31 Desember 2017
2017 Wrap Up
Hey hooooo!!! It is 1 January 2018 todayyyy, happy new year for every single individual human being in this world :)
How was your new year's eve? I hope you had great one :)
Mine? It was okay. I spent it by watching movies and dinner together with my work mates. I watched Get Out, it was pretty good, mind blowing racial movie.
My 2017 might be totally different from my 2016 and also 2015 which were full of partying and discovering new places with new friends. I would name my 2017 as Professional.
A full year of professional matters. Yes I still get to travel a lot, even more than the previous years, however mostly are for professional matters. Conferences and work. I also got to know a lot of new people, without any personal attachment involved, which makes it professional. Well I got one. My bad bitch hahah -if he's reading this he might know who I mean by bad bitch-. Also few that I still figure out whether there will be personal attachment in it or not as it is still growing ;)
I also -which I already told you in the previous post- graduated from uni, that makes me officially-unofficially fully responsible for my own -thanks to dad who still supports me financially hahah- and I am also working now. A professional one, I got job description to do, targets to fulfil, time to be invested on, also get paid from doing it.
What I reap the most during this 2017 journey is who you should keep. I learned this from my friend in AIESEC. She posted an Instagram Story saying, "Keep those who keeps you." Perhaps, it sounds so cliche, but 2017 taught me so.
2018 has started, it means my term in AIESEC in Surabaya also will end soon. The closer it comes, the faster I feel about who should I keep accordingly who is keeping me still. My ego would say I want to keep 'em all, but perhaps not everyone will have the same way of thinking. And that's okay for me, cause we can't never expect anyone to do what we do, no?
I also had this kind of conversation with also my friends in AIESEC. Eventually, people leave when they no longer have similar interests. Isn't it sad? For me it is. It's not the interests that matters, it is the effort you made that matters. I could say so because I also have relationship that works even when we're both apart from each others thousand miles, because we both give the same effort on it. Not only me who is trying to keep the relation alive, nor only her, but both together.
So, once again, happy new year and remember to keep those who keeps you :)
How was your new year's eve? I hope you had great one :)
Mine? It was okay. I spent it by watching movies and dinner together with my work mates. I watched Get Out, it was pretty good, mind blowing racial movie.
My 2017 might be totally different from my 2016 and also 2015 which were full of partying and discovering new places with new friends. I would name my 2017 as Professional.
A full year of professional matters. Yes I still get to travel a lot, even more than the previous years, however mostly are for professional matters. Conferences and work. I also got to know a lot of new people, without any personal attachment involved, which makes it professional. Well I got one. My bad bitch hahah -if he's reading this he might know who I mean by bad bitch-. Also few that I still figure out whether there will be personal attachment in it or not as it is still growing ;)
I also -which I already told you in the previous post- graduated from uni, that makes me officially-unofficially fully responsible for my own -thanks to dad who still supports me financially hahah- and I am also working now. A professional one, I got job description to do, targets to fulfil, time to be invested on, also get paid from doing it.
What I reap the most during this 2017 journey is who you should keep. I learned this from my friend in AIESEC. She posted an Instagram Story saying, "Keep those who keeps you." Perhaps, it sounds so cliche, but 2017 taught me so.
2018 has started, it means my term in AIESEC in Surabaya also will end soon. The closer it comes, the faster I feel about who should I keep accordingly who is keeping me still. My ego would say I want to keep 'em all, but perhaps not everyone will have the same way of thinking. And that's okay for me, cause we can't never expect anyone to do what we do, no?
I also had this kind of conversation with also my friends in AIESEC. Eventually, people leave when they no longer have similar interests. Isn't it sad? For me it is. It's not the interests that matters, it is the effort you made that matters. I could say so because I also have relationship that works even when we're both apart from each others thousand miles, because we both give the same effort on it. Not only me who is trying to keep the relation alive, nor only her, but both together.
So, once again, happy new year and remember to keep those who keeps you :)
Rabu, 27 Desember 2017
One Year Life Update
December 26th 2016 was my last post in this blog. Today, December 27th 2017 it remarks one year since the last post I haven't written anything here.
Well, Hello!
I know it's pretty inconsistent on my side to write eventhough I had a lot to write about this one past year. So here, I'll try to catch up all of the things I've been experienced during this one year back. I will update what did I do, what did I feel, how did I do it, and everything. Bare this long post!
Short story, after my last few post about the three LC President applicants, the applicants were added one more. It was me. I had a lot of things going on my mind exactly 30 mins before the intention letter submission deadline. I asked few of my close friends should I apply or not, and they said why not. So I applied and surprisingly got elected.
So yes, January 7th 2017 after all the long pre and election day process I got elected with 33 votes out of 40 valid votes. By the time I felt the water wet down my hair and clothes of the poured water by my current president at that time, The thing I felt was.. uhuh you'll get stuck in Surabaya until next year Vita, congratulations. My graduation was expected to be happened on around August or September, after that I have to stay in Surabaya up until my term ends but, at the same time I saw all of the people around me smiling laughing giving their best support on me made me feel blessed.
A president of a city based international organization. Pretty cool, huh? Well, you expect :))) I do enjoy each of the process that gave me new learning brought by all of the circumstances I faced as I bear the title.
However, it was not easy. The first few weeks, it was cool. I attended the national election conference for the MC President as a representative, bearing the title of LC President elected of AIESEC in Surabaya. Got invited back to Banjarmasin to facilitating AIESEC in Unlam's first local conference ever. Meeting all the stakeholders that AIESEC in Surabaya has. Not until I got my Vice Presidents. My own team. The problem was not with them, but with me. I wasn't aware enough of what actually happened in my entity. When I thought everything was great but it wasn't. "What did I throw myself into?" That was the perfect phrase to describe the condition at that time.
Short story again, we made it to analyse the core problem and form the strong team to fix it. Alright cool. We went to national conference as executive board elected of AIESEC in Surabaya 1718. First touch with national network. First time for me as well to feel what I've never expected before.
Before we went to the national conference, we took a top 5 strength definer test. As I always realise, I am a people person but, I never expected that it would be all people. I got 3 relationship building and 2 influencing. What I felt? Overwhelmed. I was in a denial phase. I rejected the fact that I have none of strategical, execution, ideation, or anything else you name it.
As I tried to deny it, the more I felt overwhelmed. Up until I had to gather with all of the LC Presidents of all entities in AIESEC in Indonesia network, I had to do analysis about my own entity, I had to plan the strategy and things. I bursted into tear when I met Pris after the session done.
Pris was MCVP of AIESEC in Indonesia 1617. We became close to each other after we both facilitating in a conference together that made her knows me more compare to other knows me. I told her I was afraid if I couldn't lead the entity with that kind of condition and I only have people oriented strength. "Vita, focus on what you are good at rather than what you are not," said her to me.
Not only to Pris, Kaja who was also MCVP in AIESEC in Indonesia 1617 also listened to me while I was bursting into tears and said "I believe that you were chosen because people like you that AIESEC in Surabaya needs." It meant a lot for me what they said.
It was my most stressful moment during my LCP journey, yet it was also my most joyful moment. It was the moment I was brave enough to be vulnerable, to let my VP knows my current state of condition, what I was afraid of. It was my most joyful moment because surprisingly after I told them when I was preparing myself that they won't accept me as their leader, they hugged me tight. I felt their support warmly hug my soul.
Now, it is only a month left till the end of our term in 1718 and choosing them as my team was never a mistake.
Yaaaaaas! That was the short story of my LCP journey and here is the other updates:
I am a graduate!!! I graduated from college on September as I expected hihihi thanks everyone who always supported me on the process and also God who let it to happen of course. I am proud of myself that I can balance my work and life hihi
Now? Now I'm an official employee hihihih I currently work in a media/news startup company based in Surabaya, Good News From Indonesia. I'll tell more later about it on another post.
Maybe that's all first that I can update!
Good night!
Well, Hello!
I know it's pretty inconsistent on my side to write eventhough I had a lot to write about this one past year. So here, I'll try to catch up all of the things I've been experienced during this one year back. I will update what did I do, what did I feel, how did I do it, and everything. Bare this long post!
Short story, after my last few post about the three LC President applicants, the applicants were added one more. It was me. I had a lot of things going on my mind exactly 30 mins before the intention letter submission deadline. I asked few of my close friends should I apply or not, and they said why not. So I applied and surprisingly got elected.
So yes, January 7th 2017 after all the long pre and election day process I got elected with 33 votes out of 40 valid votes. By the time I felt the water wet down my hair and clothes of the poured water by my current president at that time, The thing I felt was.. uhuh you'll get stuck in Surabaya until next year Vita, congratulations. My graduation was expected to be happened on around August or September, after that I have to stay in Surabaya up until my term ends but, at the same time I saw all of the people around me smiling laughing giving their best support on me made me feel blessed.
A president of a city based international organization. Pretty cool, huh? Well, you expect :))) I do enjoy each of the process that gave me new learning brought by all of the circumstances I faced as I bear the title.
However, it was not easy. The first few weeks, it was cool. I attended the national election conference for the MC President as a representative, bearing the title of LC President elected of AIESEC in Surabaya. Got invited back to Banjarmasin to facilitating AIESEC in Unlam's first local conference ever. Meeting all the stakeholders that AIESEC in Surabaya has. Not until I got my Vice Presidents. My own team. The problem was not with them, but with me. I wasn't aware enough of what actually happened in my entity. When I thought everything was great but it wasn't. "What did I throw myself into?" That was the perfect phrase to describe the condition at that time.
Short story again, we made it to analyse the core problem and form the strong team to fix it. Alright cool. We went to national conference as executive board elected of AIESEC in Surabaya 1718. First touch with national network. First time for me as well to feel what I've never expected before.
Before we went to the national conference, we took a top 5 strength definer test. As I always realise, I am a people person but, I never expected that it would be all people. I got 3 relationship building and 2 influencing. What I felt? Overwhelmed. I was in a denial phase. I rejected the fact that I have none of strategical, execution, ideation, or anything else you name it.
As I tried to deny it, the more I felt overwhelmed. Up until I had to gather with all of the LC Presidents of all entities in AIESEC in Indonesia network, I had to do analysis about my own entity, I had to plan the strategy and things. I bursted into tear when I met Pris after the session done.
Pris was MCVP of AIESEC in Indonesia 1617. We became close to each other after we both facilitating in a conference together that made her knows me more compare to other knows me. I told her I was afraid if I couldn't lead the entity with that kind of condition and I only have people oriented strength. "Vita, focus on what you are good at rather than what you are not," said her to me.
Not only to Pris, Kaja who was also MCVP in AIESEC in Indonesia 1617 also listened to me while I was bursting into tears and said "I believe that you were chosen because people like you that AIESEC in Surabaya needs." It meant a lot for me what they said.
It was my most stressful moment during my LCP journey, yet it was also my most joyful moment. It was the moment I was brave enough to be vulnerable, to let my VP knows my current state of condition, what I was afraid of. It was my most joyful moment because surprisingly after I told them when I was preparing myself that they won't accept me as their leader, they hugged me tight. I felt their support warmly hug my soul.
Now, it is only a month left till the end of our term in 1718 and choosing them as my team was never a mistake.
Yaaaaaas! That was the short story of my LCP journey and here is the other updates:
I am a graduate!!! I graduated from college on September as I expected hihihi thanks everyone who always supported me on the process and also God who let it to happen of course. I am proud of myself that I can balance my work and life hihi
Now? Now I'm an official employee hihihih I currently work in a media/news startup company based in Surabaya, Good News From Indonesia. I'll tell more later about it on another post.
Maybe that's all first that I can update!
Good night!
Senin, 26 Desember 2016
True Leader
"As a leader you have to uphold honesty." That's what my Papa told me when I asked him how should a leader be. Today, he sent me a link and i clicked at it right away. I saw there a picture of him, getting an award from the local mayor as his achievement in tackling illegal fishing as he is a marine police himself.
He told me the story that he is now working in a place, 4 hours driving from the city where he lives. As he is helping to reduce the number of fishing by electric shocks, not a little number of fishermen tried to bribe him to let them be, but he insisted not to accept it even he disciplined his people as well not to accept what the fishermen tried to give them.
Thank you Pa, for also telling me indirectly as a leader we have to lead by an example. Congratulations on your achievement. You deserve it! Now I know, i have a chance to be a good leader as well :)
Sincerely, your proud little girl.
He told me the story that he is now working in a place, 4 hours driving from the city where he lives. As he is helping to reduce the number of fishing by electric shocks, not a little number of fishermen tried to bribe him to let them be, but he insisted not to accept it even he disciplined his people as well not to accept what the fishermen tried to give them.
Thank you Pa, for also telling me indirectly as a leader we have to lead by an example. Congratulations on your achievement. You deserve it! Now I know, i have a chance to be a good leader as well :)
Sincerely, your proud little girl.
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| Succes in tackling illegal fishing, BKO Polair got an award from Local Government HST |
Sabtu, 03 Desember 2016
Eternal debt.
Never in a million time i could ever pay you for everything you've done for me. It's something i could never imagine how miraculous it was for both of you to raise me. Thankyou will never be enough. I'm truly sorry if i sometimes hurt your feeling acting rascally. I'm sincerely asking forgiveness for not being there with either each of you to celebrate this special day of yours. I feel guilty for letting you be alone on this day. Tell me what should i do ðŸ˜
It's really unimaginable how time flies now you gain another age and I'm loosing another chance to be with you. I'm selfishly pursuing what i think will make me happy and forgetting what will make you happy, perhaps just a call is not enough. God, it hurts me so much. Knowing the truth, but i really don't know how to react.
Happy birthday papa mama.
I wish we could be together right now :')
Kamis, 01 Desember 2016
Youth Power
As the second semester of the term of AIESEC is coming soon, we are now preparing for successor. I became one of the election team in AIESEC Surabaya. We launched the application of LC President a few days ago. 3 strong girls has sent their intention letter successfully and still waiting for more applicants to send theirs. Reading to these 3 first applicants intention letter really touched my feelings (idk whether it's because i'm such a crybaby) but it's so powerful. They come from three different generation, yet their intention for this entity, for this society, for this world is so pure. They aim for the same purpose. It really moves my heart. I'm really proud of them. I'm so proud to call them as AIESEC in Surabaya member, I gladly declare it is an honor to have been working together with them during this term.
I've never thought that such spirit does exist in this world. It makes me realize that we are dreaming of something real that is relevantly could be achieved with what we have now. It just takes courage and time to make it come true.
Best wishes and tons of lucks for everyone applying <3
Rabu, 09 November 2016
Deimos; son of Ares and Aphrodite who symbolises horror
Just today, 9th of November, a few hours ago I had a little talk with my friend about the impossibility of Trump to become the 54th President of US, and now I checked my phone and every social media that I have is talking about him winning the presidential election..... I feel mad, scared, disappointed, and every single possibility of disappointment you could have, I might not be the only non-American who feels the same. But the feeling is real. I don't make it sound exaggerated, as a person who is involved in an organisation that strive for peace & fulfillment of humankind's potential as its core I feel small now, there are lot of things that we need to do now. I feel that what we have been built all these years since after the World War II is gone just the way ashes fly. How could someone who is in his election campaign insulted women, insulted people with disabilities, muslim, people with race, and you could say by yourself what other things he did during his campaign, is going to run the most powerful country in the world? I really feel that myself is literally only dust in this galaxy. I am right now shaking, I just couldn't believe it. I am scared to see the future society, moreover us Indonesian, a developing country citizen, what would we be like in the future when he is the president of that country. I would move out to the other side of the world if I could. But one thing that I realize, that's the reason why we are exist, why AIESEC exist, we are still relevant about what we do and what the world needs. Keep doing what we do, don't lose hope. Humanity still does exist.
Sincerely, Vita, a 20 years old female who is afraid of her country's people fate during the next 4 years.
Sincerely, Vita, a 20 years old female who is afraid of her country's people fate during the next 4 years.
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