True Leader

"As a leader you have to uphold honesty." That's what my Papa told me when I asked him how should a leader be. Today, he sent me a link and i clicked at it right away. I saw there a picture of him, getting an award from the local mayor as his achievement in tackling illegal fishing as he is a marine police himself.
He told me the story that he is now working in a place, 4 hours driving from the city where he lives. As he is helping to reduce the number of fishing by electric shocks, not a little number of fishermen tried to bribe him to let them be, but he insisted not to accept it even he disciplined his people as well not to accept what the fishermen tried to give them.
Thank you Pa, for also telling me indirectly as a leader we have to lead by an example. Congratulations on your achievement. You deserve it! Now I know, i have a chance to be a good leader as well :)


Sincerely, your proud little girl.

Succes in tackling illegal fishing, BKO Polair got an award from Local Government HST

Eternal debt.

Never in a million time i could ever pay you for everything you've done for me. It's something i could never imagine how miraculous it was for both of you to raise me. Thankyou will never be enough. I'm truly sorry if i sometimes hurt your feeling acting rascally. I'm sincerely asking forgiveness for not being there with either each of you to celebrate this special day of yours. I feel guilty for letting you be alone on this day. Tell me what should i do 😭

It's really unimaginable how time flies now you gain another age and I'm loosing another chance to be with you. I'm selfishly pursuing what i think will make me happy and forgetting what will make you happy, perhaps just a call is not enough. God, it hurts me so much. Knowing the truth, but i really don't know how to react.

Happy birthday papa mama.

I wish we could be together right now :')

Youth Power

As the second semester of the term of AIESEC is coming soon, we are now preparing for successor. I became one of the election team in AIESEC Surabaya. We launched the application of LC President a few days ago. 3 strong girls has sent their intention letter successfully and still waiting for more applicants to send theirs. Reading to these 3 first applicants intention letter really touched my feelings (idk whether it's because i'm such a crybaby) but it's so powerful. They come from three different generation, yet their intention for this entity, for this society, for this world is so pure. They aim for the same purpose. It really moves my heart. I'm really proud of them. I'm so proud to call them as AIESEC in Surabaya member, I gladly declare it is an honor to have been working together with them during this term.

I've never thought that such spirit does exist in this world. It makes me realize that we are dreaming of something real that is relevantly could be achieved with what we have now. It just takes courage and time to make it come true.

Best wishes and tons of lucks for everyone applying <3

Deimos; son of Ares and Aphrodite who symbolises horror

Just today, 9th of November, a few hours ago I had a little talk with my friend about the impossibility of Trump to become the 54th President of US, and now I checked my phone and every social media that I have is talking about him winning the presidential election..... I feel mad, scared, disappointed, and every single possibility of disappointment you could have, I might not be the only non-American who feels the same. But the feeling is real. I don't make it sound exaggerated, as a person who is involved in an organisation that strive for peace & fulfillment of humankind's potential as its core I feel small now, there are lot of things that we need to do now. I feel that what we have been built all these years since after the World War II is gone just the way ashes fly. How could someone who is in his election campaign insulted women, insulted people with disabilities, muslim, people with race, and you could say by yourself what other things he did during his campaign, is going to run the most powerful country in the world? I really feel that myself is literally only dust in this galaxy. I am right now shaking, I just couldn't believe it. I am scared to see the future society, moreover us Indonesian, a developing country citizen, what would we be like in the future when he is the president of that country. I would move out to the other side of the world if I could. But one thing that I realize, that's the reason why we are exist, why AIESEC exist, we are still relevant about what we do and what the world needs. Keep doing what we do, don't lose hope. Humanity still does exist.

Sincerely, Vita, a 20 years old female who is afraid of her country's people fate during the next 4 years.

Learn to Love Yourself

Sometimes, you just forget to take care of yourself because you keep busy taking after the other one. You don't realize that your heart is bleeding while you're trying to catch him, you thought when you get him all the bleed will be magically healed by itself. You don't realize, you push people away just to be with him, meanwhile you are not so sure if he wants the same. You sacrifice your all just to get his attention, at the same time he's not putting effort to pay you attention. Now is the time you have to realize that you don't deserve the love you wait for. He's not coming toward you. Love yourself.

Sweet Reminder

Dear, 20 yo Vita.
I'm so proud of you tonight. You've changed into a really better person now.

I didn't notice it since when but i just realized it tonight. A quick flashback when I was still in school, I was a tomboy who liked to fight with anyone who tried to mess up with me, anyone no exception. I remember when I was in senior high school, i punched my classmates on his face just because he talked inconsistently. And today, wow wow wow, I was having an argument with a guy, a really annoying guy who i found later as a two faced guy -sounds so pussy, ay? I know- he tried to punch me on my face but what I did was just simply unexpected, I myself expected that i would even punch him first before he tried to punch me, but I didn't. I kept being calm. Let the people judge. Let the people decide who won the fight.

Now I know why did my mom always taught me never attack people first before they touch you. It feels content. I feel like I found peace within me. I finally beat my own ego.

You know it when people say, "your mind is the only enemy you have", once you conquer your mind, there's nothing else to worry about.

Conclude by yourself

I just finished the socialwork yesterday and now I'm back in town. Didn't have the chance to write yesterday since i just spent it to clean my room :') No, not really I went to Starbucks to write my marketing task but ended up chatting via LINE with a glass of iced americano hahaha

So, i'm going to write the sum up of my 28 days living in the not so small village that i wrote here before. This sum up story just happened to me during our last night there. So, just as the tradition of being Indonesian, we toured around the village to visit the houses of people that we were in contact and helped us during our stay there. I remember we visited 5 houses. One house of the head of the village Pak Kades, 3 houses of the helper of the head of the village Pak Kasun, and one house of one man who usually cleans the office and the elementary school area, Pak Tik.

First we visited 3 houses of Pak Kasun, as just usual they served us with drinks and snacks. Next, we visited the house of the head of the village, the head of the village himself has already fallen asleep according to the wife, in fact it was only 7pm, we didn't get anything meaning the wife served us nothing, not even a mineral water, but it was okay since we all already full from the 3 houses before. Last, we stopped at Pak Tik's house. Surprisingly touching, all of the family members gather around to welcome us, they served us drinks and a looooot of snack with unusual amount and also the next day before we finally left to Surabaya, the wife of Pak Tik went to our house and gave us local handmade snack one each.

That was not the story I want to share, that was just a preface. The main story is, it is not about that you don't have anything to give, but you don't want to. Be like Pak Tik :')