I'm A Kiddo, but I Will Be No More

Life lessons. First, you can't expect people to do what you do, to love you as much as you love them. Don't expect too much. Second, be grateful for what you've already had. Don't be greedy. That comfort zone will follows as a bonus for your sincerity. Third, you can't rely on anybody. Stand on your own feet even if you have to crawl, use your own hands to help you to walk, don't rely on anybody! Forth, only family who will accept you for whatever your condition is. Fifth, you'll never know what your fault is if you never ask anybody who isn't close to you, who has different point of view of life from you. Last but not least, trust nobody but yourself.

"If you expect nothing from anybody, you're never disappointed." - Sylvia Plath

Not Bloody (yet) Betrayal

I felt like i've been betrayed. But actually who am I, right? I have no right to keep them to be always with me. Friends do not always stay together, do they? Cheer up, Pitee!

Mr. Jesse!

Lol i had been in some important moments in my life this year but i haven't post anything about them here, but right now i will post something that is because Mr. Jesse. So today i went to a public speaking workshop that was held by EDSA and BSO LDS at room Parlinah Moedjono in our university library. I don't want to talk about the workshop, but yeah probably a little bit about it, i want to talk about Mr. Jesse, omg i'm so so happy that i could have a chance to talk to him like personally, he's so kind, and handsome hahaha i even told my friend that i am willing to marry him though he is old /i'm sorry to say/ but really he's so handsome! i know you may think that  i am disgusting by liking him, but for them who know me so well, i know they know what the reason behind it. Oh ya, for you who don't know who Mr. Jesse is, he is a supervisor of Ms. Christy Lewis, he is from the US Embassy, and Ms. Christy is a teacher exchange around the world, so there are a lot of people like Ms. Christy all over the world, she has been in Universitas Airlangga for about 6-7 months if i'm not mistaken, and she is the speaker of today workshop.

Back to Mr. Jesse, we were talking about Banjarmasin, he told me that he went to Banjarmasin a few times ago, he even showed me some pictures that he took there. omg this is the first time i feel proud that i came from Banjarmasin. it's like oh my god it was so fortunate that i mentioned about Banjarmasin in my speech practice together along with him and the other 3 of the participants. It is too bad i didn't take any picture with him cuz i feel like ugh no i couldn't be look this horrible to have picture with him. He is in Jakarta now, before he left i said to him "thank you for coming Mr. Jesse, it was very good to see you, i hope we can meet again, in Banjarmasin probably." and he replied me while chuckling "hahaha nah it is a pleasure to meet you, i hope to meet you again too, more likely in Surabaya i guess." oh yes pleaseeeeeee come to Surabaya again and bring the ring! hahahaah

Tiring but Lovely Week

A super duper lovely week! Guess why! ‘Cause the 2 weeks long final exam of 3^rd semester has officially done! And for this week, there were only 3 subjects for the exam, they were drama performance for Intro to Literature subject, and the hardest two were Intro to General Linguistics and Science Philosophy. They were really are the hardest for this semester, I don’t even know why but I just don’t like them really much or even I can’t even enjoy them. But I can understand Intro to General Linguistics a little bit more than I understand Science Philosophy, I also don’t know why.

The thing that make the week so lovely is I could answer almost all of the questions that given on the test of Intro to General Linguistics, for a scale that I was only studying for 45 minutes in the morning right before the exam time. I was studying on 6am until 6.45am and then the exam started at 9am. Even after 6.45am I still had a chance to continue my sleep hahaha what a bear! But unlike what has expected before, like I’ve already said I could answer all of the questions! Intro to General Linguistics man! I was never like this subject and I was never paid attention for it but I could answer all of the questions! Wow! I was like, whoa thanks Allah for the golden brain that you gave to me. But omg does it mean that I am now not safe from the zombieeeees? Yep, I do believe that mermaids and zombies are real hahaha

The second thing is, the drama performance for Intro to English Literature subject. I was playing a role as Beneatha Younger, a 20 years old colored (they said) girl who lives at the era after the World War II in the middle of white people, which is in that era black people in US were still fighting for their rights. The drama was titled A Raisin In The Sun by Lorraine Hansberry that was debuted on Broadway on 1959. The title was actually taken from a poem Harlem written by Langston Hughes. I love these literature things! They make me looks like a smart girl just by mentioning their name hahahaha Back to the drama, I was actually initiated to memorize the script when I had silent week before the exam, but as usual and always I couldn’t fight myself not to procrastinate it, pssst the devil inside myself is so huge hufft.. So I just started to memorize the script 2 days before the drama performance day. I realize that my power is on memorizing. So I was only need about 2 hours to memorize them all. And the performance day has arrived! Drrrrmmmm drrrmmmm bum bum. My team performed on the second order, can you imagine my heart was beating so fast! But luckily I could perform it well without any mistakes! Once again I thank Allah for the ability that He gave me. I was so happy, I could finish it the way as I targeted. Thanks Beneatha Younger :3

The third thing is, the Science Philosophy exam was a take home exam, so it was a paper contained 10 questions that I had to do orderly, in hand written. I initiated to do it the night before the sheet is collected, but as before I couldn’t fight not to procrastinate it (again), I was sleeping all night long! And did it in the morning also at 6am. It took me 3 hours to do it -_- I couldn’t imagine if I do the paper seat-in the class without permitted to open the internet or books…..

I probably will fail the course right after I walk out from the exam room. Luckily, Pak Moses was kindly hearted made it to a take home exam hehe oh ya the paper was collected at 1pm so I was safe hehe

The forth thing is I was interviewed for the second time. But this time was not as the youngest junior but as a second youngest junior hahaha Yes as I said I am a senior now :3

The fifth thing is right after the Science Philosophy paper exam collected; Dinda and I went to Suroboyo Carnival Night Market. It is a new amusement park in Surabaya, we haven’t been there yet, since the itinerary to go to Jogja and Malang with Sillyngitis is failed and no one wanted to come with us, so Dinda and I went to the SCNM only with the two of us. Though only with the two of us, it didn’t decrease the fun that we had. We tried almost all of the rides there, and the thing that made us happy was there were quiet visitors, so we didn’t have to wait too long for each rides. It took us about 4.5 hours in there. First, we went to Surabaya Galery, it was so hmmm quiet, there’s only some things that we agree aren’t really important actually. Boring. Second, we went to Art and Wax House, I like this place! The room is full of 3D art that we can take pictures with them, also a wax statue of famous people around the world such as Albert Einstein, Mr. Bean, Charlie Chaplin, Brad and Jolie Pitt, also the legend sexiest woman in her era, Marilyn Monroe, there are also some wax statue of Indonesian people. Though not as much as in Madame Tussaud, but it’s quiete acceptable :p Of course we took a lot of pictures there. Third, we tried carrousel, so happy! I was singing all the time when the horse that I rode was circling, I think that was my first time riding carrousel. Forth, we rode Ferris Wheel, my legs were shaking when the cage that we rode was in the highest point, but I really love it, it was like I could see all of the city of Surabaya above there, and also it was so romantic, I will beg my future boyfriend to take me there :p Fifth, we try a rides which took us circling the rides in prone position, trust me I don’t really like that rides, my head was like spinning just because of it grrr I wouldn’t ever ride that rides anymore! Sixth, we tried Bledek Coaster, it is a mini roller coaster but enough to make us screaming loud. This rides is my favorite! Seventh, we tried Orbiter, ughhhh I don’t like this rides too, it also made me spinning ugh I even still feel the feel after I rode it. And then we took a rest at a little beverages shop, we ordered two vanilla ice cream cones and 1 hamburger for me, oops it was actually not really two but four vanilla ice cream cones, two for each of us hahaha No wonder why we have sexy bodies ;p Then after enjoying the meals, we tried the next rides, SC4D, it is a 4D theatre that shows scary 4D animations. That night the show was Dracula. And then we tried Laser War, I only shot about 20 times to the enemies, and Dinda beat me with 50 scores -_- but, my self defense is better than hers :p I only got shot once, while she was 3 times hahaha Next, we tried Mining something I can’t remember what’s the name is, it is a look alike rides with Bledek Coaster it just doesn’t have 360 degrees round track. Then we tried a rides which the track is above us, it was like cycling while singing above the sky, the song that we sang was My Heart Will Go On by Celine Dion hahaha The last rides we tried was Mirror House, we skipped the ghost house because we are two scared-chickens, but inside the mirror house is scary enough at some part, there are no lights, only glowing things, even my shoelaces were glowing there, we were so terrified! But not all of the part is scary, there is also a room with full of mirrors and big balls whoa I was really deep into my enjoyment with the big balls when Dinda told me she saw a couple that were in the same room with us were kissing -_- ewww! That gross! Dude, I know it is your right to kiss your spouse, but it’s not a common thing to do it in public places, at least in our culture. We decided to not think that thing we just laughed at them hahaha but actually I wasn’t see them. The time was almost 11pm and we have tried all of the rides except the under constructions rides so we decided to go home. We really enjoyed the time that we spent there and forget all of the disappointment because of failed to go to Jogja with Sillyngitis.

The fifth thing is, the morning right after the night I went to SCNM, I went to Malang with the member of last year’s Kaderisasi of EDSA. I went there with Mas Fikri, our head of division, Mas Dwiky, Mbak Ajeng, Meme, and Anisa, Firna and Agit couldn’t join us for some reason. We went to Jatim Park 1, we bought tickets in order to get in to the Bagong Body House. First we went to Bagong Body House, it was a six-floor building which there is different types of body part in each level. The first floor is a lobby where a brain look alike hang above us, then Mouth session, I remember how ridiculous we were watching into the screen while standing over tongue look alike, it was a fluffy semi hard texture tongue, eeewwwww. Next is Ear session, I was disappointed with this session -_- it said that my ears age are above 40 and under 50 years old -_- that was a lie! Of course I have two healthy ears that can work well as its function though I always listening to iPod loudly with the two of earphones plugged in, just like right now when I’m typing this story :p the next sessions are eye, brain, blood, joints bone, I forgot what else, but at the highest level, we could have health test for free, I tested my eyes, it turns out that I have 0,25 minus on my left eyes ;( but the doctor said it can be healed if I diligently consume carrot and tomato. Yeay! I will be a good bunny, doc! Then the last session is 3D theatre about how sperms reach ovum. Okay…..

Then we went to our main destination, riding rides in Jatim Park!  So happyyyyyyyyyy! It was a big mistake that Mas Fikri and I did, we tried 360 degrees Pendulum firstly above other rides -_- ughhhh I hate that rideeeeeees! It made me wanted to vomit, even Mas Fikri got his face pale as white as whiteboard hahaha Second, Mas Fikri, Anisa, Meme and I went to Ghost House that I avoid! Ugh, I closed my eyes and held Anisa’s bodies all the time inside there. Errr once again, a scared-big-chicken. Next, Meme, Anisa and I tried Columbus, it is a quiet big but not so big ship that swing forward and back. I love this ride too! Next, for the first time all of us rode the same rides together, Galaxy Bumper Car hihihi we bumped into each other’s and screaming out of joyment together sharing the time that we spent together, I love them. Then, Anisa and I tried Spinning Coaster, a so-so rides. Then we all walked to Volcanoes Coaster but it turned out that the Volcanoes Coaster is under construction -_- We just rode Dragon Coaster, it was so tiny for roller coaster hahaha but enough to made mas Dwiky terrified just by watching us riding the rides :p Mas Dwiky has a big body and scary face but it turns out that he has a hello kitty’s heart :p Awww. Then we walked into the exit door because we thought that we’ve rode all of the rides, but it turned out that we haven’t rode a ride which like a rides at SCNM that Dinda and I rode, cycling over the sky, since we went there with six people of us, we rode that two persons each cycle, Mas Fikri and Mas Dwiky, Mbak Ajeng and I, Meme and Anisa. I enjoyed the short trip above, Mbak Ajeng and I sang Just Give Me A Reason song by Pink if I’m not mistaken, yeah my music knowledge is so bad. Then we arrived at the stop pit, we waited for Meme and Anisa, hahaha Meme’s face was so horrible! She was frightened. We continue the tour into Pipes House, the third rides that we went into together. We got a little bit wet because of the water sprinkles. Oh, before we went to the Pipes House, we met a crocodile cage contains around 5-7 big crocodiles, they were scary but it’s not a good behavior to captive wild animal in a small cage, they belong to nature, nature is their place. The last before we went out of the park is Aquarium there was baby sharks! Also, I found out for the first time told by Mas Fikri that Jellyfishes are immortal! Though they lost their head, still they alive, what a gift! The last road is Market; they sell souvenirs, meals, fruits, plants such as cactus, and also some cute pet such as rabbit, hamster, guinea pig, and cat.

We finished with the park, tired of walking and screaming; we felt hungry of course heheh Meme brought lunch meals for all of us, she said her grandma cooked it for us. Thank you Utiiiii, thank you Meme :* we didn’t have to pay more money to buy meals hehehfinished with the lunch, we continued the trip to Alun-Alun Batu, at first we wanted to ride Ferris Wheel and buy the famous Ketan there but it turned out that the ferris wheel ws closed -_- so we only buy Ketan, it is a Javanesse traditional food sticky rice, but what makes it different with the other Ketan in Java is it has variant topping such as chocolate, cheese, also duren. I also bought two yoghurts that Anisa said is delicious. Right when the Azan Maghrib was reverberating, we went back to Surabaya. I had no idea why I still had much energy than the others, I rode the rides the most among the others, I drove to Malang, then I still had to drive again to Surabaya, but I didn’t feel tired even a little bit, while I was driving mbak Ajeng together with Mas Dwiky conversed with me, they were afraid if I feel sleepy hahah I’m a strong girl though :p and the others were sleeping and sometimes waken up by our laughs. It was heavy rain when we touched half of the way, I couldn’t see the road clearly, so we had to drive slowly. Really, it was a really heavy rain with trucks and buses in front of, behind, and close to our car. But it didn’t last long, it has gone before we touched Gempol. Closer to Surabaya, yeay! We dropped off Anisa first in front of Waru Train Station, then dropped mas Dwiky in front of his house, poor mas Dwiky, he said he almost canceled to join the trip because he got stomachache, but he appreciated Meme who made the event so he still joined us with his stomachache. After dropping off mas Dwiky, we continued the car to the first place we met in the morning, in front of our campus. We split up there, mbak Ajeng went back to her boarding house with her boyfriend, mas Fikri walked on foot to his boarding house, since it is close to campus. Meme put me off to my boarding house. Yep so the trip was over that night. A full day trip with Kaderisasi. A tiring but worth to spent time.

The next morning, I had to wake up early cause I had a morning flight to homeland, Banjarmasin. I woke around 4.25am, took a bath, 4.42am I called the taxi. It was unlike usual, the taxi didn’t come for so long time, I called the operator about three times, the second and third time the operator said that the taxi is already inside the alley, but it didn’t show off until 5.10am, to be honest I was so panic! The flight was at 6.10am, and it takes about 45 minutes to go to the airport from my boarding house, it was already 5.10, I called Papa with half crying, I told him that the taxi hasn’t come, I thought I would missed the flight. Between the conversations that I did with Papa, an unnoted number was calling, I answered it turned out that it was the driver phone, he said that he was already in front of the alley and it was portal-ed, so I told him I was going to walk over there. It was so shocking after I reached in front of the alley, it wasn’t portal-ed, and the taxi wasn’t there! Can you believe me, my heart was about to burst that time! I was like wanted to scream out my anger but there’s no one I could tutored! So I called a taxi that was passing by in front of me. I went to the airport with different taxi with that I had reserved, I called the operator on my way that I canceled the reservation because I was in hurry and the taxi didn’t come. I thought that the driver is new, because I know that taxi company, it was never disappoint me before. So I arrived at the airport, but it was too late. The check-in stall has already closed. Okay bye bye ticket. I called Papa again, I told him that I have arrived at the airport but I missed the flight. He suggested me to buy ticket for the next flight, and I did it. Do you know, the next flight to Banjarmasin that still available was at 11.35am, ughhhhh so I had to wait for 5.5 hours until the next flight. I waited at Dunkin Donut while enjoying a cup of hot chocolate and croissant sandwich for my breakfast; luckily it was Spongebob Squarepants cartoon on Tv that time. I forgot about my loneliness waiting alone by myself there by watching Spongebob Squarepants cartoon, my lifetime favorite cartoon. The cartoon has ended, I decided to put my iPod on, and open my laptop, I wrote half of this story while sitting there waiting for my flight time. Didn’t want to missed the flight again, I went to the check in room earlier at 10am, it was still 1.5 hours till the flight time. I sat inside the waiting room until the boarding time came. I flew to Banjarmasin. Swoosh! I didn’t know why, it was like my first time being scared traveling by plane; it felt like the turbulence when take-off time was so big. It hit hard the clouds; I was praying all the time. I was so thankful when the plane has already landed. Mba Luh, Mas, Noe, and Kian picked me up at the airport. It was sad that Kian didn’t recognize me, he was crying when I reached him -_- oh baby this is auntie.

The next day, which is yesterday I got a news that my junior high school friend was missing at a beach in Jogja and still in searching. It was because the waves were high. I was feel so sorry for him and his family, but at the other side I felt thankful that my friends and I are not going to Jogja as we’ve planned, it was right that Papa said, there will always be a good things over bad incidents. Once again, Allah saves my life. Alhamdulillah.

Remember this always, Vit!

"Friends under me save me from my imagination about how is it like to live like friends above me"

- Vita Ayu, an unstable 18 years old teenager

2014

I go to nowhere to spend the last night in 2014 because some reasons. First, the plan that my friends and i have planned since a few weeks ago to have barbecue at Annis house was canceled for a reason. Second, I only have one day free for the new year holiday since i am on final exam period, so i couldn't go back to Kediri. Well, actually i could but too lazy since the distance is far enough to be spent only one day, besides I also have a paper task for the Arabic final exam that i haven't touched yet. And the last reason is i am too lazy to move my ass out of the bed. It is raining here right now, so comfort to be spent inside the blanket, right? So here i am in front of my beloved laptop trying to remember what moments have happened. What changes have i got. What things have i done. Where places have i visited during the whole year. Hmm, it seems nothing much different with the year before, but well let's just see.

January,

Well, i spent the 2014 New Year Eve at Jogja with my junior high school pal and her friends there. I went to Jogja to spent my silent week holiday, at first i didn't have desire to spend the NYE there, i've bought the ticket back to Surabaya before the new year, but as always, i became too comfort to leave Jogja and its people, so i postponed my train ticket until 4th of January if i'm not mistaken. There, in Jogja i met some new friends that ive been told in the post A Week In Jogja.

I got my hair straightened. It was very straight, so my cheeks seem so round and big :')

In January, i had my first final exam as a college student. I went home to Banjarmasin directly after the exam done. ah, no not directly after, i followed an interview to join the HIMA in EDSA. Also in January i got my first semester result, the result is not that awful, but bad enough. I only got 3.33 of 4.0, with 1 subject that i should retake.

Oh, i almost forgot. 27 January, my family got a new member, Kiano Adila Virendra. My cousin's son. Welcome Baby Kian.

30 January, i watched DBL the first time as an alumni of high school together along with my high school pals hahahah

February,

What's happened in February? Love month people said. Yes, i remember i spent my February with people that I love, family and friends. I spent my whole holiday time in Banjarmasin.

March,

Time to go back to Surabaya.  The second semester was began. I had my hair black-red colored ombre.

I got my hair back to its natural color, black.

Photo shoot for HIMA together along the members. EDSA.

April,

Our lovely faculty was arriving two guests from Ubon Ratchatani University of Thailand :)) p'Jubjang and p'Bow (p' was the pronoun for big sister)! miss ya girls! Yep, as for your information i was really in love with Thailand, because of its handsome boys :p so i've already know a few things about Thailand before p'Jubjang and p'Bow came to our faculty. They taught us about Thai language, i still have the paper they gave us. Even i still remember that the paper has Nichkhun of 2pm. Why 2pm? Isn't 2pm a boyband from Korea? yep, but Nichkhun is from Thailand you know! hahahah

I went back home to Banjarmasin again on April, but only for a short time heheh and papa introduced me to his girl, tante Putri. She was only 23 years old and a very kind person. Papa also told me that he is building a new home for us and his new wife soon.

I cut my hair.

I remember that i joined color run that supported by Indosat in Banjarmasin with Meida, Rizqa, Bayu, and the others. If i'm not mistaken that was the first time that color run is booming. and there's a number of color run, glow run and the other type of run nowadays -_-

Back to Java, i went to Kediri again, it was raining! I was riding bicycle with my cousin under the rain, yeah i love the rain, but not the thunder!

28 April, i was in Surabaya. Me and my friends including Sillyngitis went to Es Teh Bude. I love that place. Cheap foods, relaxing place. #selfiepinggirjalan.

30 April Sillyngitis went to waterpark after delivered p'Jubjang and p'Bow to the airport, they back to Thailand huhu. My Another Fine Day With Fine People.

May,

We had MHMMD seminar.

15 May, i bought a hola hoop and played it inside the mall :'D i was really had no face!

23 May, Sillyngitis minus Meme and Abee went to Food Festival and had our first sleepover at Dinda's house.

24 May, i got my very first Zara sandals.

26 May, Giska's birthday. The surprise was held at Inul Vizta family karaoke at Surabaya Town Square. Joyeux Anniversaire Giska!

June,

The best month of the year.

I met a guy from India through online chatting, his name is Akkil Ram. We continued communicate to each other via facebook chatting and as well as skype. He asked me out, and i said yes, but actually i knew that it would not work since we are far apart, but yes everything's worth to try, ryt?

14 June, table manner of public relation class at Ibis Hotel Surabaya. So it was a fun class. We had a tour around the hotel, shown the cooking demo by the chef, we got meals. Everything was for free :p

15 June, E-fest day of EDSA. I was the committee, as a documenter. So i was sticked to the only skill that i have, photography.

19 June, i went on holiday to Bali with Tante Putri for only a few days. We had fun time there. Even we visited 5 different beaches in one day! can you imagine hahah Bali, June, Holiday.

22 June, went back to Surabaya for having a day oral philosophy exam on 23 of June.

23 June after the exam, flew back to Banjarmasin! wohooo!

26 June, dadadadadaaaaa the Cake Day! Happy turning 18 years old Pitee! First, i got surprise from mama, mbak Ni Luh, Cerii, Mas, Kakak, and Mas right on the 00.00 o'clock. There's not any single greet from Sillyngitis even until the afternoon ;( Second, i got surprise from papa, tante Putri, mba Ewi, mba Ethrie. I got my second cake, yay! :D

26 June, around 7pm Banjarmasin time, i was eating so i didn't hold my phone, but it kept ringing. When i checked it out, tears shed out of my eyes unstoppably, Sillyngitis sent me a youtube link HAPPY BIRTHDAY VITA AYU ANGGRAENI by Sillyngitis. It is a video which all of them inside it saying a happy birthday to me :'D I love y'all Sillyngitis!!

27 June, i went to hangout to the mall with Mbe and Rizqa. and then Mbe asked me if she could stay for a while at my house, of course i'd love to even if she wasn't ask i would beg heheh without any suspicious on her i talked casually, but and then i saw something like candles were lit outside the house, from this on i became suspicious :p it turned out that Dicky, Dimas, and Bayu was setting the candles forming the word of "HBD Vita", aha this time i was could no be lied, they were having a surprise for me :p they gave me a big box of donuts instead of a cake :'D ah anti-mainstream friends. And that night i was watered by fish pond water by them -_- but, my nephew cried a lot because he thought that i was harmed by my friends hahaha how cute he was! Another Late Surprise.

28 June, went back to Surabaya for having the final exam weeks.

What a very hectic month :) i always love my June!

July,

3 July, I met Sillyngitis again after the last time we met on 23 June. We were sitting while joking at the college hall, but there was no Giska and Annis, the other said that Giska accompanied Annis went back to home to change her broken skirt. Something happened! I borrowed Indati's phone, and accidentally read their private chat. Boom! Their secret revealed! It turned out that Giska and Annis not only went to Annis house for change the broken skirt, but they also went to bought me a birthday gift hahahaha Indati, Dina, Dinda, Meme, and Abee were upset that their surprise was failed while i was laughing as hard as gorilla. And then i made an apology to them and i said i will act like i haven't know they make a surprise for me hahahah Suddenly a senior came approach me and gave me a gift, but it worked! I didn't even think that the gift was the gift that Sillyngitis had prepared. I was nervously unwrapped the paper bag, and ta-daaaa it was The Fault In Our Stars novel by John Green, i was so happy cause i've been admiring at that book for so long, and Sillyngitis bought it for me as a gift :'D they know me so well!

4 July, it was Bulan Puasa, i went to Solaria to have Buka Puasa with Babun heheh

8 July, Buka Puasa with Sillyngitis at Genteng Kali. We were so rock! we only went there by 6 girls but we spent so much food such we haven't eaten for a years hahaha

9 July, mbak Nindi had some test from her office so she should stay at Surabaya for 2 weeks, she got facilitated sleeping at a hotel, so i followed her to sleep at the hotel :p i was about a week sleeping at the hotel before back to Banjarmasin heheh

10 July, i got my very first vans sneakers. I've been always using converse for my daily kicks, but it was too worn so i got to have a new kicks.

19 July, Ramadhan In Charity with EDSA. Buka Puasa together with the orphans.

20 July, flew back to Banjarmasin!

23 July, Buka Puasa with the Alumna of Acceleration class of SD Muhammadiyah 10 at Uti's house. After Buka Puasa, we visited Memes's mum at the hospital, she has been hospitalized for so long they said. and lately, she has been passed away and rest in peace beside Allah.

24 July, Buka Puasa with Xprsst4urlf.

25 July, Buka Puasa with XiiATri

27 July, I visited Kai's grave and sent some pray for him before the Eid day. After visiting Kai, we stopped by at an old house, it was Rumah Bubungan Tinggi, South Kalimantan Heritage. It was my first time visiting that South Kalimantan housing culture.

28 July, The Eid Day! Mbah kung, Mbah Wati, and De Put were at my house in Banjarmasin to celebrate the Eid. It was my first time celebrating the Eid with them since they live in Kediri. Happy Eid Mubarrak 1435 H.

And I got my second semester result of studying as college student, it was higher than the first heheh 3,54 :3 I thank Allah for it hehe

Augustus,

4 Aug, went hangout with Elementary school's pals. It reminds me that friendship long lasted till the end. Everyone has changed since the last time we met haha we used to playing together and fighting to each other when we were in the elementary school, but now we all are grown up. Separated by distance to achieve our own life goals. We will meet again when we are on the top, pals :)

5 Aug, went hangout with my science classmate, Adiska and Melinda. It also reminds me that no matter how much new friends that you make, old friends will stay forever be your friends till no end.

8 Aug, went swimming with Tante Putri and Tatang. No matter how much friends do you have, family remains in the first place. Remember that!

11 Aug, papa bought birds! We have pet again hihihi

12 Aug, went hangout with Dina and Rizqa.

15 Aug, went hangout with Dina and Melinda.

19 Aug, i got my hair colored again, Atomic Turquoise.

20 Aug, went hangout with Adiska, Rizqa, and Melinda.

21 Aug flew back to Surabaya. wooosh!

22 Aug, become the committee of Bradanaya. Wohooo, I became a senior now :3 No more being Maba heheh I also be a documenter, as usual.

28 Aug, became tour guide in Kediri for Giska and Annis. We really had fun memories. We used my Mbah Kung's vintage car as our transportation in Kediri hahah fancy girls inside vintage car!

29 Aug, visited the new waterpark in Kediri also with Giska and Annis.

Whew, July and August was full of having fun and spending a lot of money :p

September,

12 Sept, a short trip to Malang with Tante Putri's family heheh went to Batu Secret Zoo, Museum Angkut, Batu Night Spectacular, had a night staying there.

14 Sept, having a garage sale with Giska and Annis at Jalan Darmo at the Sunday Morning Car Free Day. We have waited for a long hours, but no one came approaching me hahahah :'D so we moved to Taman Prestasi, also no one bought, but some people approaching our stall. I was spending my money on buying two cute duck balloons and Es Wawan just for healing my boredom hahaha

22 Sept, Dina came visiting me from Malang. We spent a day hanging out at the mall :'D what else Surabaya has beside mall? :'D

26 Sept, i flew back to Banjarmasin again for only 3 days if i'm not mistaken.

October,

3 Oct, my bestfriend Rizqa's birthday, but i don't know why i forgot it! i didn't even give her a birthday greet. I was just realized a month later...... how bad bestfriend i am :(

4 Oct, the last time i had my hair healthy :'( I colored it again to PINK! do you believe me that i colored my hair PINK? I wanted red, but the fuckin' salon got it wrong to PINK :( and my hair got so so so damaged. Poor my hair :(

5 Oct, I colored my hair black because i hated seeing my face on pink hair color

6 Oct, I cut my hair because it was damaged so damn poor! bye-bye long hair :(

12 Oct, Simulation of Gathering Night at Kolat Surabaya. I got tan as fuck! :(

October was the worst month of the year!

November,

7-9 Nov, the day of GN! Getting more tan -_- but i love the togetherness that we shared! EDSA is our home!

20 Nov, The opening of Diesnat 25 years Anniversarry of EDSA! I got new friends during the Diesnat.

December,

4 Des, Mama and Papa's birthday! Happy 44 birthday Papa! Happy 43 birthday Mama. I love you no matter it takes to loving you both.

Also 4 Des was my first time to vote in the election hahahaah we voted for the chief of EDSA, and congratulation Mas Fikri, my ex Head of Division for becoming the new Chief of EDSA. Proud of you!

5 Des, watched the Drama of Beast, played by EDSA talents. Proud of being the member of EDSA.

6 Des, became tour guide for the second time for Dinda and Indati. We actually went to Kediri for hunting costumes to be wear on the Rap Session night, which the theme is 60's British.

11 Des, I got my second black slim converse sneakers. I do love my vans sneakers, but i do need converse for my daily kicks. It is the one and only comfiest kicks that fits my feet well.

12 Des, the Rap Session Night. It was rawk!!! The real party i had. We had fun, we shared, we danced, we jumped, we sang, we screamed to the lungs  without worrying looked ugly. I was totally having fun.

14 Des, initiated to do the assignment with Abee and Dinda at Milk Me cafe, but it ended up with sharing-and-taking-cute-ugly-photos-session, and the assignment? Didn't even touched.

18 Des, I bought a novel, Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen. It is my second full english version novel after The Fault In Our Stars. Wow. What an Achievement Pitee heheh

19 Des, Spent the last day of college day to go to the mall with Dinda and Abee. Also doing the same session that we did in the milk me but without taking pictures since our faces looked very horrible due to the hot weather hahaha

And then spending the silent week holiday at Kediri with Mama and the whole family in Kediri. I was initiated spending the week to memorize the script that i will played for the Literature Drama performance, butttttttttt it turned out i didn't even touch the script -__- I spent the whole week and the whole money that i had with watching movie at the theatre and playing pump it up at the playground -____- I went to the mall almost everyday :'D

21 Des, i colored my hair black cause my cousin said "your hair looks like corn hair with that color" -_-

26 Des, I got hard fever

28 Des, Airbus AirAsia QZ8501 from Surabaya to Singapore went missing and been found a few days later 30m under the surface of the sea. I sent my deep condolences and best pray for the victim and the family that have been left. Allah has its own best way.

29 Des, i started the final exam week with Argumentative Writing subject. Easy Peasy!

31 Des, now 10.07 PM People starts to lit their firecrackers and blowing their trumpets while I am sitting alone in front of my laptop while listening to the music, writing the whole story of my 2014. I've been sitting since 7.00 PM, it means i've been sitting for 3 hours! my back starts feeling pain hahaha It feels so sad spending the new years eve alone by myself, but what can i do heheh i rather choose to be thankful that i still could see the new year with full of healthiness rather than being sad for being alone in the new year eve hehehe

See, a lot of things happened during 2014. I got new friends, regather with old friends, got new age, spending a lot of times with family, got new family member, ahhh i also become a kpop-er, i write it here because i didn't realize it since when was i become a kpop-er hahaha now i could sing korean song, i watch korean drama and film, i know some words in Korean also can write and read hangul hahaha i'm so kpop-er!

And about Akkil, the indian guy, i've been lost contact with him since almost a month ago. He got angry I don't know why. According to one of his friends, Adish, he said that Akkil also moves and disappears from them all. Hmm i don't really know what is happen but yeah as i said before, everything can happens. But i hope that he's okay :)

I am so thankful to my Lord, Allah SWT for always giving me health, thanks for the wealth, for people that He gave to my life either blessing or lesson, thanks for the best parents He gave me, thanks for the maximum brain that i could use everytime! Thanks for everything Allah, I know you want me to be the best, i know that you love me heheh I'm so sorry always being grumpy, for being impatient, being a fool, but you know i am only a human. I made mistakes heheh

Also thank you for my parents that always supporting me no matter what or ho i am. I love you till the end.

2015, let's be friends ;) Happy New Years pals! May we have a great years ahead.

It's Okay, It's Love

I didn't agree about what people said that love doesn't have to have each other, but when it comes to me, I do agree now.

When you like someone and you want him/her to be yours, it simply means that you only get curious about him/her, there's no love in it.

When you love someone, you will pray for his/her happiness though you're not in it.

Now i know how it feels to love someone sincerely without expecting for reply. I believe that if it means to be, it will finds its way. Everything's already in its order.